M.I.A.....Peanut

Um knock knock!....Hi....Remember me?!?!?!

So let me back track a little.....
Happy New Year - all the best in 2009!
Happy Inauguration Day - wow what hope and what a special day!.It was remarkable to see Barack Obama become the 44th President of the United States.
Happy Valentine's Day - Hubby Dubby, you are the greatest in the world and I love you more than words can express!
Happy Family Day- we had a great day, just lounging at home
Happy Birthday Hubby Dubby!!!!!- today is my wonderful husband's birthday (32!)

Happy.....OK I know I've been missing in action. It's been what 2 months since my last post.

Things have been a world wind and to tell you the truth, for some reason I didn't feel like writing. I needed a to take a little time to 'find' myself again and get into the routine of things. So I'm back now. I'm committing to writing at least twice a week from now on. I promise!

Although I have been gone from the blog world, I really haven't been. I've been reading everyone else's blogs and keeping in touch that way. So thanks to so many of you, who have inspired me to start writing again.

I'm fully back at work and am not doing exactly what I thought I'd be doing at my 'job' and real estate has completely slowed down, so I've had to do some thinking lately.

I've been feeling that mom guilt for a while now and sometimes it really gets the best of me. I'm a little torn. I love to work and have a life and everything that comes with it, but I'm also feeling like I'm missing things with the Peanut and finding a work life balance is easier said than done.

The Peanut turned 1 on January 6th and that was a great day, although I had hoped to spend the day with her, but again because of work and a couple of meetings I had to attend, I couldn't. I can't believe she's 1 and that a full year has passed by.

We had a great birthday party for her - actually really it was for me, but we all had fun. It was a "small/big" party - small in that it was only our immediate family, but given that the hubby dubby has so many siblings it ended up being almost 20 people none the less. There was a little bit of drama shall I say, as we decided that presents would not be opened at the party, but in private later on. My in-laws felt that it was not right, although what they don't understand is that we do not want our child to learn that birthday is about presents or who gave what. I really hate this about them. It's always about a show with them. (I 'll leave that all for another post).

The Peanut has grown so much and is such a different person from that little bundle a year ago. Her personality is really shining now and she's such a character. I have a sassy Peanut on my hands and she loves to test everything.

She started walking about 2 weeks ago and now is pretty much running around and getting into everything...I mean everything. She takes the pots and pans out of the cupboards and wants to bang them together, she takes the remote and tries to hide it, wants to eat what we eat and loves to read her bobo (book). She looks for Dada as soon as she gets home, and sees his car, by popping her head into every room on the first floor of our bungalow. She loves to bang on the window to get the squirrel's attention and tidy up her toys by throwing them in her basket. When I'm dusting she likes to grab one of her bibs and wipes away at the floor or her little table and chair and says clee, clee.

The newest thing the Peanut does is sway her bum to the music and taps her right foot when she hears a beat she likes. She also loves to point at herself every time she sees her reflection in the mirror or a window. Seriously, where do they learn this stuff?

Even when I'm dead tired and frustrated from work, as soon as I get to my mom's to pick her up or the Peanut comes through the door on the days the hubby dubby picks her up, and she says Mama! everything washes away and I feel happy and re-energized again.
(Don't ask me that when I've been with her all day and she won't nap, eat or be fun at all, but you know how it is)

I can't believe how something so small like her saying Mama, can just melt me and make me feel like everything is good and I'm doing exactly what I should be doing.

So that's my update for today....I'll be back!